Ok, so here are my innermost thoughts and feelings about out impending move.

Living in Linköping these past 6 years has been good and bad. Sure it’s annoying to have almost all our friends in another town, not to mention my job, but it has been nice in a way. Linköping was like our get away. There is something to be said in having an apartment in a town a couple hours away from the rest of your life. It was the place were the two of us could be by ourselves with only the occasional outside interference and I’m going to miss that in a way. Now my whole life will be in Örebro and it will be much harder to escape things. There’s always Nora, but it’s not really the same thing. Before anyone gets to insulted, it’s not really my friends and family I like to escape… (often) it’s more my job. This job is frankly, a little scary. I know I can do it, and I will rock it, but it’s so much responsibility and it’s on going responsibility. I had a lot of responsibility in what I did earlier as well, but the project would always end. Then I could go back to Linköping and just be alone with my husband and my cat, and not have to think about what was happening at the office until they needed me again. But now… THERE WILL BE NO ESCAPE. It’s going to be constant monitoring of every step of this 6 years study. Not just one tiny part. And this study is huge! I’m going to have to use every weapon in my organizing arsenal. It’s exciting, but also…. I WANT TO BE FREE! Free like the wind. It’s kinda’ like I’m getting married again. Commitment is just scary in any form. I know this is called “being a grown-up” to commit yourself to people and jobs and animals, and houses and kids, and life. But I never said I wanted to be a grown-up.

Here’s an interesting fact. I have moved 9 times that I can remember. Meaning I moved once or twice when I was 2 but we wont count those. That gives me an average of moving every 3 years of my life so far. I’ve lived in my currant apartment in Linköping for 6 years. 6 years! That’s longer then I’ve lived any place in my whole life. That’s longer then my mother has lived any place except her childhood home.

I’m moving in 10 days. It’s going to be so weird to go to work and come home… to my own home at the end of the day! And to be able to see my friends when ever I want! Or more accurately when ever they want. I do feel bad for taking my mother’s only grandchild away from her though. But a baby should be with it’s mother.

I think I’m becoming a really non-imaginative person. I completely coming up short now, and I am constantly failing at the whole, witty Facebook status thing. I think being out in the world, around people drains imagination. And funny. I don’t really feel funny anymore. Obviously I still am, because genius doesn’t go away over night.

Oh I head something awesome. I haven’t googled this at all, so this is just the words of some drunk guy, but apparently they have found recently that ant colonies have contact with other ant colonies all over the world and they think that basically they are all taking orders from one super mega ant! Well that last part is properly hyperbole, but it’s such an awesome idea!! Like there’s a giant supreme ant living someone in the core of the earth. One day the ants will revolt. And we thought it would be the monkeys. We were WAY off!

My finale thought; did you know an ant queen lives up to 30 years?

Other stuff happened today that made me sad to. None of your bees wax stuff. It’s over and everything has worked out, but now I just feel sad and lonely and I don’t have anyone to talk to. I just want today to be over all ready.

Plus I just know I’m going to get sick on Christmas.

I’m going to watch it’s a wonderful life and eat soap and feel sorry for myself.

1. The age at your next birthday

2. A place you’d like to travel to

3. your favorite place

4. your favorite food

5. Your favorite pet(s)

6. Your favorite color combi.

8. Your favorite piece of clothing

8. Your all-time favorite song

9. Your all-time favorite TV show

10. The town in which you live

11. Your screen name/nickname

12. Your first job

14. Your dream job

15. Your worst fear

16. the one thing you’d like to do before you die

]]> http://dezeba.dose.se/2008/12/google-image-search/feed 0 http://dezeba.dose.se/2008/10/remix?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=remix http://dezeba.dose.se/2008/10/remix#comments Sun, 19 Oct 2008 14:58:46 +0000 admin http://dezeba.dose.se/?p=120 I remixed my backwards Swedish song. I call it “Vara Tara, Bara Vara”
It will be coming out on my new album, “Tara’s hits of the 90′s.”
It’s psychedelic house trance acid funk rock.
Vara Tara, Bara Vara

-At least three of McCain’s GOP colleagues have gone on record to say that they consider him temperamentally unsuited to be commander in chief. Smith, the former senator from New Hampshire, has said that McCain’s “temper would place this country at risk in international affairs, and the world perhaps in danger. In my mind, it should disqualify him.” Sen. Domenici of New Mexico has said he doesn’t “want this guy anywhere near a trigger.” And Sen. Thad Cochran of Mississippi weighed in that “the thought of his being president sends a cold chill down my spine. He is erratic. He is hotheaded.”

McCain’s frequently inappropriate humor has also led many to question his self-control. In 1998, the senator told a joke about President Clinton’s teenage daughter at a GOP fundraiser. “Why is Chelsea Clinton so ugly?” McCain asked. “Because her father is Janet Reno!”

I do love inappropriate humor… and that joke is pretty good… but still.

speed